January 15th - NOT HOT

Today sucked, big time. I was supposed to have my tea ceremony practice in the park today (it was cancelled yesterday, remember?). As usual, I was on time. The tea house was beautiful: not too special but whatever. There were so many groups of ladies, all in kimonos and practicing or just chillin' (haha). When they saw me, they started laughing: 'what is that young man doing here?' But they weren't mean at all, they even invited me to sit with them. I had an appointment with Yukiko, so I could not. I asked everyone for Yukiko, but she was nowhere to be found. So I left, pissed off. When I had just closed the door, a lady ran to me and gave me a note Yukiko had written. She explained why she wasn't there and told me to come to her house on Saturday. Because it was already 13:30 and I had the appointment with the agency at 17:00, my day was kind of lost. So I went home and watched the new episodes of Gossip Girl, 90210 and Privileged. I also had to do some stuff for the British Universities.

I went to Shibuya at 16:00 to meet up with Makoto and to pick up my phone. We went to the modelling agency he had told me about: I was so nervous! He joined me, and looking back, I don't know if that was the best thing to do. I mean, they were constantly talking Japanese, and I was standing there like: =)... Clueless? They didn't even look at my portfolio, they just made some pictures and took my measurements. Then, we were dismissed: whatever. It all went way too fast. I would have wanted some time to introduce myself, show them my pictures and tell them why I am here, so they could see my passion and personality. I regard this as an important lesson: I do not need other people to introduce me, I have a strong personality and I am smart enough to tell people what they want to hear... Right?

My day sucked, really. All the plans I had looked forward to failed and I had nothing to do. Makoto had to go, so I was alone, again. I felt miserable, the homesickness was slowly returning. I called my father to ask for some advice and I chatted with Julie all night long.

The internet was gone, again. So I went to my neighbour to ask him if he had given my proposal a thought. He had. He invented some sort of site, don't ask me how it works, but I have internet. I don't even have to pay for it, not a dime! He is so kind, I got to see his apartment. I must say, much better than mine. It's exactly the same, but he had nice furniture and better lightning. But I would have the same if I lived here permanently.

Tomorrow, I am going to do what I want!! I need to do something to feel better, so what shall I do? I AM GOING TO PUROLAND! I need my Sanrio friends to stand by me and to make me feel better. I love them so much, and I am looking forward to meeting Hello Kitty, the Little Twin Stars, Cinnamoroll and My Melody. I promise, tomorrow will be better!